(rook) 1. we slithered out of your reach. all of us had someone like you to run from. our wings were clipped and our limbs were damaged but we crawled and picked our way out as far as we could.
2. we lived by the water. took care of something that made its home deep below the surface. the mother of the depths returned our kindness by giving us her flesh to sustain us. she was sick and diseased like we all were, but she kept us alive.
3. things settled and some of our feathers started to grow back, a different color than before. our bones began to heal - at new angles, but almost as strong as they used to be. we held each other close at night and whispered that things were different now. things were safe. we had to be reminded nightly, or else we'd forget.
4. you found us. you came while we were sleeping. you talked with warm familiarity and i threw up at your feet. you asked me what was wrong - sincere - and i couldn't answer. i wish it was easier to hate you. i wish you were a bad person, but instead i just think that i am for wanting that.
5. we drove you away, haltingly. i told you i needed more time as if i hadn't already decided what you were to me. i wish you knew what you did, but i don't want to tell you. it would be easier if you were something i had nightmares about instead of ugly, complicated dreams. i want to flatten you into a villain but i think that would only turn me into one. please leave me alone. i'm happy now. i'm happy here. please don't look for me. i promise i'm okay. please go.
listen to me. i'm going to speak plainly i'm not going to say your name. i'm afraid because of what i know you won't mention all those years of horrible tension i don't think youre a monster, hardly i just think that you fucked up, badly i can never tell you what you did to me so i have to settle for this, i hope truly that you never hear these words that i'm speaking this is just for me as i'm healing. it's not my fault that my soul is a war that i don't want to say i love you on the phone anymore i blame you. but i don't want to hate you ...but maybe that's because i'm afraid to there is a memory of when i was young and i admired you so much.
we got away but everything reminds us
i admired you so much
6. what comes next? is there anything after? where will we go to now? who will we become?
i wonder.
i've never wondered before.
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(dizzy) everything always changes but its always the same everything always changes it flickers like flames everything always changes dice roll to a different face everything always changes new skin new name everything always changes but its different sides of one thing everything always changes in a circle in a ringTeksty umieszczone na naszej stronie są własnością wytwórni, wykonawców, osób mających do nich prawa.
