She invited me over for dinner But I knew what she really wanted Or at least I thought I knew At that time it was difficult for me to distinguish Between kind gestures and blatant come-ons I was in a bad place and my ability to interpret signals was completely off Kind of like crossing the street and not being able to tell the difference Between a red light and a green light All I knew was that I had to move and so I moved forward Jaywalking through life People like whizzing cars, speeding by There were hard edges in the air, steel And the only certainty was the inevitable collision I was the victim But, it was clear i was a willing victim She invited me over for dinner And I said yes
“come on over for dinner tonight”
Everywhere I went I was an alien I stopped for a bottle of wine at the supermarket It was full of hot mothers and screaming babies I didn’t mind, but I felt like everyone was staring at me True, I had had a couple of beers beforehand to take the edge off And I was buying a 2 euro liter of wine to ease me through dinner So what? I was wearing sunglasses, a white button down shirt and tight black jeans How did that make me persona non grata at the supermarket? Was it the number of cheese samples I had tried? The eighth of strudel? The tenth of backwurst?
“come on over for dinner tonight”
Needless to say I wasn’t even hungry anymore The beer had filled me up and now I was a few blocks from her house At a cafe, drinking a glass of white wine It was hot outside, but the inside of the cafe was shady and cool And the waitress was attractive I looked at her, she smiled at me I wondered what it would be like to kiss her The walls of the cafe were mirrored and the person I saw in them disturbed me Hair a mess, an emotional wreck Cars sped by outside, there was incessant honking as an ambulance wailed I covered my ears and went to the bathroom Splashed water on my face Pushed my hair back I said “you can do this” “you can do this” What exactly I was doing I didn’t know Going to dinner?
“come on over for dinner tonight”
My confidence was flagging as the sun was setting I took a taxi to her place to ensure my arrival It was slow, languid And as I sat in the back, taking in the city with a buzzing in my head
I looked at the buildings, so different from what i knew People on bicycles, men pushing strollers, women going to work, joggers I couldn’t tell if i was excited or terrified But something was happening and I determined to see it through no matter what
She lived in a huge apartment complex, on the fourth floor It was difficult to navigate, but I knew the way I took the stairs The city was old, destroyed, divided But the building she lived in was new I rang the doorbell She was a strong and independent woman So I rang it again
We drank whiskey for a while And when I left I couldn’t tell if I was walking on sunshine or eggshells And still It’s difficult to distinguish between the twoTeksty umieszczone na naszej stronie są własnością wytwórni, wykonawców, osób mających do nich prawa.
