When I walked in Saw your face White teeth glint Black t-shirt Should have run But I was a prize
Sixteen (x3)
I was 16 and had a boyfriend that was an idiot Which was okay because I was also kind of an idiot My friend and I snuck into an Army barracks late at night She was dating an older guy who lived on the base Suddenly I was a prize In a building of a thousand men Drenched in America and sweat I'm not saying that the military raped me I'm saying I was sixteen and I was on my period (Black t-shirt) There were three wolves in the bedroom who circled me Without ever flashing their canines Isn't rape funny like that I have to speak in metaphor in order to get it out In the morning I told myself that I drank too much And that I cheated And that I was so sorry And "boys will be boys" Weaved a different story in my head Painted it like glitter in a swamp Forced a laugh when I said "rough sex" I wonder how many girls have giggled while they were raped? I bet a lot of them (Black t-shirt Should have run) Sometimes when I'm washing the dishes The hairs on my arms stand up And somehow thought memory turns into physical memory And I feel my body tense up at the kitchen sink (Saw your face) I don't know the science of that kind of thing But I feel my eyes close, scared And the movie plays and I softly say "no" And I don't laugh uncomfortably this time (Black t-shirt) Then afterwards the fury comes like a wave of ashes And I pretend I am the biggest, most powerful phoenix And as my hands wrap around the coffee mug in the water I pretend they teleport through time and space to that night And circle around his neck And I say no a whole fuck-ton louder than I did
I guess what I'm saying is (Saw your face) I don't apologize like that, anymore (White teeth glint Black t-shirt Should have run I was a prize)
When I walked in Saw your face White teeth glint Black t-shirt I should have fun I'm not a prizeTeksty umieszczone na naszej stronie są własnością wytwórni, wykonawców, osób mających do nich prawa.
