Staring at my food but I cannot eat it Laying in my bed but I am not sleeping Crying in my room and I keep it top secret, Cause people tell me they care but they do not mean it.
I'm cut open, even though I am not bleeding My heart's broken, so Imma make it stop beating Someone runs in the room and screams: "He's not breathing!" I'm rushed to the hospital to have a Doc treat it
But he cannot beat it, there`s no time at all, Cause I just popped some pills with some Tylenol, And 3 bottles of antidepressants, and Sambuca, 40 ounces, got killed I didn't puke up anything
There's no use in pumping my stomach, Cause I'll just do it again, I'm a lost cause so fuck it. Everyone with grudges towards me, Is gonna love this. The smiles on their faces when my death goes public.
Cause I'm killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands ... I can't picture myself as a grown man... I don't wanna grow up ... I hate change and everything's just so ... Rearranged.
My life is nothing but a disaster ... And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit won’t matter ... Fuck this Imma kill myself.
I act happy. But I wanna die, I'm not gonna lie ... Thoughts of suicide keep crossing ... My mind on a regular basis ... Going crazy cause I'm going through bullshit ... On a regular basis ...
Look me in the face, I'm sick in my eyes... Cause I'm sick in the mind ... I've been wishing to die ever since I was 9. This isn't a lie ... I don't bitch just to whine Or bullshit just to rhyme about it.
I don't cry just to spit, Just to try to guilt trip ... Cause I could give two shits about your pity... I ain't trying to get everyone to feel bad for me, I'd rather diss everyone and make y'all mad at me ...
I ain't a happy person and I ain't that liked. Not even by myself. I know I ain't that nice... But people don't understand how much ... I hate my life ... Cause if they did they'd know how bad... I want to take this knife and be ...
Killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands. I can't picture myself as a grown man. I don't wanna grow up... I hate change and everything's just so rearranged ...
My life's nothing but a disaster, And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit won’t matter, Fuck this Imma kill myself ...
I quit, I'm bailing, I'm done ... I finally give up, I'm sick of failing, I'm done trying to live up ... To the expectations everyone has set for me .. And trying to explain shit to myself ...
Always questioning about my destination ... Fuck my destiny ... No more relationships ... My friends are all dead to me ... My head is aching, and I don't have any energy ... I'm patiently waiting for the day ... That I can rest in peace ...
And this medication is the reason ... That I don't get no sleep ... It ain't worth taking, So I just take some ecstasy. Then hear my friends say, "You're a retarded fuck up." Maybe killing myself will Make you retards shut up!!!
Cause I only do it once in a while ... At times when I forget how to fucking smile ... I hate being belittled when y'all act like you're ... Looking out for me ... If you were looking out of me then ... I wouldn't about to be ...
Killing myself, Taking matters to my own hands. I can't picture myself as a grown man. I don't wanna grow up... I hate change and everything's just so rearranged ...
My life's nothing but a disaster, And time keeps going by faster ... But in a second all that shit won’t matter, Fuck this Imma kill myself ...
When the times comes ... I`ll be crying then ... I`ll have to get a hold of myself ... Call all my friends, and say goodbye to them ... Then get high and then ... Call up all my friends again and say goodbye again ... And cry again ...
Stop crying, Smile... Find a pen. Write down some last words... Somebody will find them when ... I`m in heaven ... Looking down on them ... Or who knows ... The way shit's been going maybe in Hell ... Looking up on them ...
But either way I'm watching ... I'm waiting their reaction ... Suddenly someone walks in ... Wait they ain't laughing ... They read it and start crying ... They actually do care ... I'm shocked, I can't believe they're ... Sad that I ain't there ...
They miss me... Man what a horrible mistake I made ... And I can't take it back ... It's way too late ... If only I could relive my life ... I'd re-make this song ... Rewrite the hook and it would be like ...
Life's shit, but I'm taking matters to my own hands. I can picture myself as a grown man. I wanna grow up, I can deal with change, Even if everything gets rearranged.
Maybe my life's a disaster ... and time keeps going by faster ... But now I can see all that shit don't matter ... Fuck that Imma live my life!Teksty umieszczone na naszej stronie są własnością wytwórni, wykonawców, osób mających do nich prawa.
