In sweet dreams, I kid myself Have your love for good I really had hoped you'd stay But like the river, you just come and go And these things, they comfort me When my mind's on you And I feel you comfort me But like the river, it just comes and goes
[Verse 1: Joyner Lucas]
I used to think that you was Superman when I was younger (Yeah) Findin' comfort in your voice when I was down and under Put you on a pedestal and now I kinda wonder if that made sense ‘Cause I'm convinced you showed a lot of colors (Yeah) All them nights I was alone, I hid inside thе covers Used to argue with my moms whеnever I was stubborn (Facts) I never warmed up to the idea of a step-dad because he wasn't you And you and him ain't even like each other (Word) Used to bring me ‘round your girlfriends as I recall I thought one or two was cool, but I ain't like ‘em all ‘Cause all you ever did was argue ‘bout who's right or wrong And you ain't have no job, so you would sit at home and light a bong (Yeah) Used to crave for your attention, but I never got it And everything you said we'd do is just another promise You had dreams of bein' famous and I never doubted But I started rhymin' to impress you, if we bein' honest(Facts) But we can have some bondin' time and maybe pow-wow A father/son relationship that we can smile ‘bout At time's you got abusive and I had to bow down Or keep on makin' music to try and compete with Bow Wow Your father died when you was young, I think that made a scar I started thinkin' maybe that's why you the way you are (Nah) End of the day, no excuse for how you played your part Told myself when I became a father, I'ma raise the bar (Word) We had a lot of fallin' outs and didn't talk for years And all them birthdays and holidays got awfully weird You threw me in a foster home and I was brought to tears Livin' with some strangers, feelin' anxious, I was lost and scared (Yeah)
[Refrain: Joyner Lucas]
And now I'm starin' at the river tryna get across And all I see is apparitions of what never was And everything I used to wish for is dead and lost And if I never see your ass again, I'll be better off I'll be better off (Yeah)
[Chorus: Elijah James & Joyner Lucas]
You are so negative (Uh) And you say you know But you know a goddamn thing Like the river, you just run and go You say you could do good And better you know But you tried no goddamn thing Like the river, I'ma run from you
[Verse 2: Joyner Lucas]
I told myself I wouldn't write a song, but fuck it, I did Oftentimes, I sit and wonder if it's somethin' I did Or maybe I was immature, but is it somethin' I said? I can't help but feel the feelin' that there's somethin' I missed I told you somethin' happened to me and you ain't protect me (Yeah) You tried to say you ain't believe me as you disrespect me (Facts) And plus, you never had my back, in fact, you may resent me in a way ‘Cause everythin' I say, you try to use against me (Word) And I never knew your other kids, but I knew of ‘em (True) I'm not really sure if I like ‘em, but I do love ‘em (Do) Shit, I don't even think you knew but just a few of ‘em ‘Cause all your baby mothers stayed away to keep you from ‘em (Word) You probably out fillin' they heads with shit that's not the truth You probably told ‘em that I switched up when I got some loot (Uh) You probably told ‘em that I'm greedy and I'm not so cool That I worship the devil and I sold my soul to cop a pool (Yeah) I worked my ass off to get rich, let's not confuse I sacrificed my whole twenties just so I can move (True) While everybody else was chillin', hangin' out with crews I was writin' a plan to finally win while tryin' not to lose (True) I still remember signin' my deal and you got hella funny And at that time, you probably figured I had hella money (Yeah) But I only got a small advance, so I ain't even get a chance to hold you down ‘Cause then you started gettin' jealous of me But I'm worth a couple million now, I turned out fine (Yeah) I copped my moms a big crib and went and got mine An indoor pool with a house made and I'm not lyin' (Nope) A happy son who loves his dad, it's about time (Yeah)
[Refrain: Joyner Lucas]
But I'm still starin' at the river tryna get across And all I see is apparitions of what never was And everything I used to wish for is dead and lost And if I never see your ass again, then I'll be better off Nigga I'll be better off
[Chorus: Elijah James]
In sweet dreams, I kid myself Have your love for good I really had hoped you'd stay But like the river, you just come and go And these things, they comfort me When my mind's on you And I feel you comfort me But like the river, it just comes and goes
[Outro: Joyner Lucas]
And congratulations, nigga, you won And all the love you never gave me, I can give to my son Eternal love to my child, we'll forever be one Thanks to you, I know the man that I would never become Never become
****In the audio version of the song there is also Bridge, but in the video this fragment was omitted
[Bridge: Elijah James]
Karma comes back and it's co-co-comin' (Co-co-comin') Treatin' me bad and I'm ru-ru-runnin' (Ru-ru-runnin') Karma comes back and it's co-co-comin' (Co-co-comin') Treatin' me bad, I'm ru-ru-runnin' (Ru-ru-runnin')Teksty umieszczone na naszej stronie są własnością wytwórni, wykonawców, osób mających do nich prawa.
