I’m wondering who I’ve become and how’d I end up here It’s thundering and I can tell the sun is no where near I stay up all night, anxiety keeps me awake While I’m just thinking about mistakes I always seem to make Think I’m addicted to my suffering I’m so inflicted with this sickness that’s corrupted me I seek forgiveness deep within because I hate myself It’s either sink or swim inside of this internal hell Fuck So many scars I try to cover up Broke so many hearts, relationships I always fuck em’ up Lonely in the dark hoping to God the sun is coming up Only through my art you’ll realize that I’m so fucking numb These suicidal thoughts are plaguing me with no remorse Got so much hate in me it’s like my heart is tainted and it’s torched Feels like there’s no recourse my back is up against the wall The pain is reinforced with guilt that I cannot absolve
I’m so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it through or will this never change I’m forever in pursuit of chasing better days I’m so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don’t wanna’ cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna’ die I’m so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it through or will this never change I’m forever in pursuit of chasing better days I’m so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don’t wanna’ cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna’ die
Recovering seems so impossible How can I move forward, I’m my own biggest obstacle Yeah I know it’s probably best I check into a hospital But I’m scared of being judged for pain that’s beyond my control It’s hard to look my family in their eyes It’s hard to smile in their face when I just wanna’ die Please forgive for speaking my truth I’m sorry for this painful energy that I exude But I can’t hold on, I swear to God I’m losing grip Promise you it’s been so long since I felt that true love exists How can I be strong when all this hurt continues to persist If this makes me wrong, fuck being right cause I can’t do this shit Fighting to survive but I been losing all my strength I been fighting just to die and I’m surviving with no faith All these thoughts of suicide slowly takes the pain away My soul has been crucified while my spirits up in flames, fuck
I’m so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it through or will this never change I’m forever in pursuit of chasing better days I’m so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don’t wanna’ cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna’ die I’m so lost on my own Everything I ever knew will never be the same Will I ever see it through or will this never change I’m forever in pursuit of chasing better days I’m so lost on my own Suffering in silence I don’t wanna’ cry Wondering if I can find myself deep down inside Recovering feels so impossible I wanna’ dieTeksty umieszczone na naszej stronie są własnością wytwórni, wykonawców, osób mających do nich prawa.
