I got exhausted of sand bars and ambulances And now I'm tiring of basements and brick Like ivy wilting the moment it manages to root I only flourish when I'm steeped in atrophy
I'm feeling broken So listless, devalued and lost
I'm having trouble discerning what's eloquent And what is simply pedantic pretension
Should I stop trying to force out some beauty from release? Yeah, fuck it
Is it enough to say that I'm really trying? Another attempt to make something that's worth your time Fortunately I've learned a bit from my rambling Asinine platitudes, plaguing thoughtful songwriting
I'm feeling less and less like this shit is worth it Repeated assertions of my selfish existence Never providing explicit action, just words I doubt I'll ever find a path that leads me towards a real reason to be
I saw a vision of my future An early grave and nothing more Outlasting the premonitions of pestilent oracles At twenty-seven I was born
The steady drip of loss Another glass spilt by a spiteful hand Staggered by boundless flames drowned Salt filling every crease My reflection in the wake In shimmering waves
They can never take away every ounce of joy That I've squeezed from this borrowed time I always knew I would die at the hands of a coward But I never expected they wouldn't be mine
On the precipice of collapse The only certainty in static In this plague bunker We watch seasons dissolve
The faint scent of drafty sheds The caress of middling drivers Underwater revelations Optimistic, untarnished
Repeated cries of the nightingale Psalms ringing with new urgency Scattering feathers in desperate flight
Spells of ideation between the solitary Turning knobs and gnashing teeth In the great before Isolation, his only comfort An indulgence to clip her phoenix wings
I thought the well of texture had run dry But blistered hands are soothed by affinity To pull the weight of creation To till the soil of tribulation
My jagged words Surely to be smoothed By ink more pure than my own Seeds of aspiration grown by our collective We coalesce, and drench the wall
